Final Essay

Final Essay

Basketball video

Holocaust Overview

Free Write 5-9-13

Well I am happy I decided to graduate early, though I am envious of my friends who are done with high school tomorrow, I am glad that I get to be a sophomore when they are freshman in college. I can remember how awful I thought school was and that I couldn't wait to go to college. To be honest I miss high school and all of my friends. Senior year ended up being awesome. I loved my teachers and friends and all around it was great. I wish all of my friends could pack up and go to college with me but it's not going to happen. My friends are super important to me and knowing that we graduate next friday makes my stomach churn knowing that we will never walk the halls together again or be waiting for each other in the parking lots. At least all of us are within about a  4 hour radius of one another. I hope we are the friends that stick together forever and once we're done with college, be able to meet up and do the things we used to, but let's be honest, that probably won't happen. I hope we spend every moment together this summer, to soak it all in and reminisce on old times. I'm usually not the sappy type but since coming to OTC I've realized how much I miss my friends and favorite school teachers. There is no better friendship than that you have matured with and gone through trials with.

Harrison Bergeron Essay

Caitlin Jewell

Eng. Comp. 102-118

Mr. Neuburger

19 February 2013

Response Essay

Harrison Bergeron

"Harrison Bergeron," written by Kurt Vonegut tells the story of a young man named Harrison Bergeron who is smarter and brighter than his peers and that is not acceptable in the year of 2081. After reading one can plainly see that people are not meant to be equals and can be who they choose. People who seem to be smarter or stronger are to be given handicaps, which are instruments that make everyone equal. Bergeron is smart, attractive, and strong which means he wears an instrument on his ear, an ugly mask, and weights to make him slower and more like everyone else strength wise. "...Now watch me become what I can become!" Bergeron shouts to show that he can do whatever he wants. Therefore he is going against what the government was saying and nobody had ever done this yet. "Harrison's scrap-iron handicaps crashed to the floor." In contrast, Bergeron has done the unimaginable, he showed the world that he couldn't be controlled by other people and also that he can be who he wants, not who somebody else wants.

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Vonegut, Kurt, Jr. "Harrison Bergeron." Power of Language; Language of Power: A Collection of Readings. 2nd ed. Boston: Pearson Learning Solutions, 2011. 293-99. Print. Ozarks Technical Community College.

Assisted Suicide Essay

Caitlin Jewell

Eng. Comp 102-118

Mr. Neuburger

2 February 2013

Response Essay

A Case Of Assisted Suicide

Jack Kevorkian, author of “A Case Of Assisted Suicide,” told the story of how he wanted to help suffering patients commit suicide. After reading this, one can see that Kevorkian’s only interest was to help his patients. Kevorkian stated, “Because Janet’s condition was deteriorating and there was nothing else that might help arrest it, I decided to accept her as the first candidate... “(318). He only wanted to do the assisted suicide if there was no other treatment and only if the patient came to him. One may speculate that this act would be murder and that Kevorkian wanted to kill people. Clearly Kevorkian only wanted to help the person because he never forced it upon the patient, it was their choice. Kevorkian described his first patient, Janet Adkins,“The intelligent woman knew what the diagnosis portended, and at that instant she decided she would not live to experience the horror of such a death.” (318). In contrast, since Janet was diagnosed with alzheimers and didn’t want to suffer that way, Kevorkian wanted to help her go peacefully. After reading, this portrays how one man only wanted to help people who had no other choice, he didn’t want to see people suffer if they themselves didn’t want to go through the agony.

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Kevorkian, Jack. Power of Language; Language of Power: A Collection of Readings. 2nd ed. Boston: Pearson, 2011. 317-23. Print.

Free Write 4-4-13

The whole getting used to a college setting thing is going pretty easy now. I'm still undecided on what I would like to major in when i get to CofO this fall. I thought about criminal justice, now that just doesn't seem like what would suit me. To be a police officer or in any type of law enforcement you have to be able to deal with all kinds of stress and stressful situations which quite frankly I hate. I cannot stand stressful situations or having to make a decision that could cost someone a life. I like giving advice to people and helping them through their problems. Maybe a therapist? That field has always kind of been an interesting thing to me because they get to help people through things. I constantly pray about what God wants for me and He has taken the law enforcement idea out of my head. Food nutrition and excersize has interested me too. My health class is probably my favorite. It's cool to know about what effects your body etc... The only problem is that I don't really want to have to teach and being a phys. trainer doesn't really have that good of an income. Who knows.

Free write 4-2-13

This is the time of semester that my teachers begin lecturing us on how to not procrastinate or give up on the rest of the year. I believe that these teachers are speaking to me when this happens. I already procrastinate in the first place so by the time we're halfway through the semester I am putting everything off so bad that it doesn't even get accomplished last minute. This has always been an issue with me, it also doesn't help that I'm very forgetful when it comes to school work because most of the time I don't care about it. It sounds bad when I say it, I know that school and education is important but I just don't like it. At. All. Unless it's something I enjoy, like writing (most times), psychology, or health, I don't care what happens. I want to get good grades though, which is hard if you don't get a few assignments done or don't take the time to study for the test that is coming up. My brother and sister especially have been good at school. My sister got academic all american during her basketball playing years in college and my brother never did too bad in classes either. I guess I didn't inherit the specific gene they have. I wish I had the ambition they had to study and make sure they had all their work in order, but I just don't like school enough to do it. I'm that kid in the family who always has the token C+ every time on my grade card at the end of the year. Also my dad makes  a point of telling me not to be lazy and to study. But what does he know? he didn't have to do all of these new math techniques in his years. I don't even know if math was a subject that far back! I want to make nothing but B+ or higher someday. Who knows when that will be, I wish I knew. Maybe if my dad bribed me with like $150 every semester if I got B's or higher would I begin to buckle down and be a good student. Some people like learning I guess, they enjoy having to go through the frustration of never seeming to get anything right. I guess I'm just not one of those people who have that drive. Unfortunately.

Freewrite 3-26-13

It's has been a year and almost 4 months since my mother died of cancer. I knew the time would come when my dad wanted to date again, he had done his grieving but it was time he found someone to be with so he wasn't alone. My high school counselor who we had known for about 5 years also goes to my church. Her husband was killed about 10 years ago and left her with two boys who are now in high school. My mother was friends with her, not close, but close enough she knew her personality. Before my mother died she had told 2 people, her mom (my grandmother) and a close friend of hers that if she died she would want my dad to date her. This alone shows how great of a person my mom was, I don't know if I could have the nerve to tell who I would want my husband to love after I was gone. It astounds me. Recently, back in February my grandma and the friend decided it was time to tell my dad their secret they had been holding  for over a year. My dad was shocked, but actually thought of the idea. He knew her and had we had actually been over to her house for dinner a few times, but he never thought he would date her. Finally he asked her out, just to see how things would go. Go, they did. They began going out a couple times a week which turned into a few more times. Now they do everything together and my dad told me and my siblings that things were getting serious. Last week they went ring shopping, which means only one thing. Marriage. I guess when you're older you know what you want so why wait? you're not getting any younger. It's a good thing I like her boys, they are some of the nicest people I have met! I think God and my mom are orchestrating everything from above and it's working out perfectly. They hope to marry in July but get engaged in April so they have a couple months to plan a small wedding. As for living arrangements it's confusing. She works as a high school in Willard and we just built a new house about 25 minutes away by fair grove. I will be in college but her boys are still in school for another few years. My dad says he will probably live with her until they can sell her house and one of the boys graduate. So far it looks like my sister gets the new house all to herself! I am so happy for my dad, it was hard seeing him alone everyday not having anyone to talk to and help make descisions. I'm sad sometimes thinking about having a different female leader in my family, I know she is such a great person but I can't help thinking sometimes that she will never be my mom. Nobody could ever fill that space but I guess some could fill it just enough.

Free Write 3-5-13

Finally I have gotten my letter from College of the Ozarks and have been accepted for the fall term! I am so excited to start down there but also nervous at the same time. All my life I have known going to school then coming back to the comfort of my own home. Starting this fall that won't be the case. I won't have my family to talk to when I need to know something quick or some place to do my laundry for free. No, I will be living 45min (not far) away on campus of a school with about 1,500 students I don't know. I like to think I'm outgoing but I figured out I am only that way with people I become comfortable around. Shyness is a trait of mine and I generally get sick to my stomach when i am around a large amount of people I don't know, which I guess is common among most people. I hope and pray that God will give me courage to step outside of my little comfort zone and branch out to be around more people. My sister went there and keeps telling me about how much fun it is and that I will make so many friends. She played basketball so she already had 20 friends from the start, then of course the mens team and other athletes she began to know. I on the other hand will be thrown in there not playing basketball like many had hoped for me, but I chose to go to college early which ended my basketball career. I really want to make new friends but I'm the one to usually make an excuse of not to go somewhere for some dumb reason. I think too much about what others think of me. I am not the typical college "try and rebel everything I have ever known." I play it safe and do what I have always done. I get scared at trying new things and I only wish I didn't but somethings you just can't help. I make myself crazy thinking about it.

Free Write 2-19-13

Yesterday I was watching a show (Castle), somewhat of a crime/romance/comedy, where the daughter of a famous author who helps at the police station gets kidnapped. The daughter was 19 years old and was only taken because she was with the other girl who was the actual target. I have always wondered what it would be like to get kidnapped. Obviously I don't want to find out the real way, but know what would be going through my mind and maybe the kidnapper themself. Since the daughter, Alexis, had a father who is protective of her and volunteers at a police station, she was rather smart at how she could figure out where they were. Locked in a metal type room, resembling one of those long metal storage buildings, Alexis stomped on the floor and could figure out they weren't in the basement because there was space between the box type thing and the actual flooring. At the end of the show Alexis was able to pick the lock with some hair pins her friend was wearing. Her father had taught her how to do that. When she escaped she found a cell phone in an office type room and skyped her father to tell him she was okay. She then heard voices and was able to make her way to the roof of the building and saw something shocking. No longer was she New York, she looked out and saw the Eiffle tower, she was in Paris, France. The police found this out while tracing the call she had made to her father and next weeks episode will show what happens next and I am freaking out because of it! I will probably have anxiety over what will happen the rest of this week up until 9 o'clock Monday night when it continues! :-( The bad thing that could happen is that she gets taken forever and killed.

Free Write 2-14-13

Since today is Valentines day I found it only appropriate to write about such thing. Today is nothing but a day of sadness. I am not with any "special" someone this valentines day for the first time in 2 years. It's rather strange to me. It's sad that my dad was the one to get my sister and I the valentines present. I am not complaining though since he got us each an hour pedicure :-) My plans today consist of going to school, going to my aunts for lunch and then proceeding to go to a chick flick movie with a few of my other single girl friends. This will be so interesting as we will be complaining at the fact our other best friends are with their significant others staring at each other all googly eyed because it's the day of 'love' haha. Instead I am spending it with my awesome single friends and we will be going to dinner together and having a fantastic time. I don't see the point of valentines day. Choosing one day out of the year to show someone you care just a little bit more than normal. Shouldn't that be everyday? I guess it's kind of pointless, besides the fact you get good candy and lots of chocolate which isn't necessarily a horrible thing to think about. The only thing that comes out of valentines day is the chocolate and food you get out of the deal. Maybe even some jewelry if you're the girl in the relationship. I feel bad for the guys because all the pressure of picking a great gift rests on their shoulders. I guess they need a little brain activity here and there to challenge themselves.

Free Write 2-12-13

Last night I went back to my high school so I could see all of my friends and watch the last girls home basketball game. I don't regret my decision to quit basketball my senior year and I don't regret graduating early. I have played basketball ever since i was in 4th grade. I have played all year round as well. I will miss my summer team with all the girls from the surrounding areas coming together as rivals and being so close by the end of the summer. As I watched senior night last night next to one of my best friends who also didn't play basketball this year, I realized I left a friend as the only remaining senior playing basketball. My stomach turned while I watched her be escorted out by her parents, her dad being the coach. They announced her name and her goals in life and I found myself becoming upset at the fact I wasn't down there next to her.

Free Write 2-5-13

My weekend was probably the best weekend I have ever had in my life. In my last freewrite I explained how I was going to get to see my brother, Tyler, perfrom his first show as a guitar player for the group Gloriana at the Grand Ole Opry house in Nashville TN. We left early friday morning and got to Nashville, got settled at my brothers apartment and then left to eat and go to the show. My brother, being a member, got to go in the back of the opry to get his stuff in. My dad, sister, and I were in the car with him and the guard ended up letting us in because we needed to get our will call tickets anyways. We walked in the back and immediatly met my brothers band manager and sound people. We proceeded to walk by the dressing rooms and found my brothers band mates. We met the two main guys of the group, Tom and Mike Gossin, their fiance's and a few other people I don't even know. When my brother had to go practice the rest of us went to go get our tickets. As we were leaving backstage to go get the tickets a large guard was standing by the door and handed us backstage passes. "You want to come back right?" he asked. We smiled and took the passes and went to go get our tickets wondering if he thought we were on the pass list or something. After we got our regular tickets we went backstage and handed the passes back and asked if we should go get our seats. "Well you can, but you can go sit on stage if you want." We gladly excepted and proceeded the rest of the night to sit behind the artists on stage and go meet the rest of my brothers band and some of carrie underwoods band as well.

Free Write 1-30-13

I can't wait for Friday to come! My brother gets to play with his band, Gloriana, at the Grand Ole Opry. I'm so excited for him to get to do this. He finally gets to play in the music business and to make matters better, Carrie Underwood will also be performing. I love Nashville Tennessee, if I were to move anywhere it would probably be to there. It's so nice, clean and full of music and good food. My brother is only 25 and has lived there for about 4 years now and absolutely loves it. He has done random odds and ends jobs playing guitar for people, but just this year the trio of Gloriana decided to upgrade him from being a guitar tech to actually playing back up guitar. He did the whole deal of rehearsals and now is starting to actually play in shows. He has about 125 shows this year and all over the United States. Traveling from TN, to Cali, Boston, New Orleans, Orlando, and Texas etc. I think it would be so cool to get paid to do what you love as a hobby on top of getting to travel the world with your friends and playing in front of thousands of people. This year they'll be touring with Alan Jackson and maybe even do a few shows by themselves, for instance, this friday at the opry. It's so crazy to think my brother could someday be 'famous' or something. He better give me a share of his money ;) I look forward to everytime I get to see him, I love his personality and sense of humor which makes me miss him more and more everytime he leaves, especially if he stays for a longer amount of time.

Free Write 1-29-13

Running is what's on my mind. I want to start running agan. I miss running in basketball, running up and down the court to stop the opposing team. Running to get ahead and catch a ball so I can get some easy points. That all stopped on my last game in august, the 14th I believe. Little did I know that was going to be my last game played with a summer AAU team. Not only AAU, but forever. I decided that I was going to graduate high school early which meant I couldn't play basketball my senior year. Some people call me crazy, but I haven't regreted my decision yet. Sure, I miss playing. Not necessarily with my high school team because I didn't care for some of my teammates. I miss summer basketball, it's starting back up in about a month or two and I won't be playing for the first time since I was in 4th grade. My dad won't be coaching me, he won't be coaching at all. He had coached my sister, then me for 15 years. I guess he'll get to golf more now. It's sad that I will leave that behind. All the times I thought I wanted to quit and give up, only to find myself getting better and better as the times went on. I made friends I will keep forever. Staying up late in hotels and then waking up early to go give it my best on the court. So my thoughts aren't really on the fact that running is on my mind, I guess it's basketball. The game of my life. The game that I have come to love, but also hate sometimes. Basketball has made me not only a better player, but a better person. I have learned how to deal with situaions, get through stuff if I try hard enought. I miss that game.

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Free Write 1-22-13

Stress. That's what's on my mind. I always over think things and make myself super stressed out. I hate being in large environments with tons of people. I don't mind if I know the people but if I don't know them I have tons of anxiety about the situations. I get stressed to the point of mental exhaustion where I just constantly feel tired and worn out and just want to lay in bed all day long. Why? I don't know. Maybe it will get better as life goes on. I am stressed about whether or not I should get a job and try to balance school. I am stressed about what I'll do in school and what career I want to pursue. I know I shouldn't worry and just remember God is in control of what I am going to do. But that sometimes is hard to always know for certain.

Intro.

Hello everyone! I'm Caitlin Jewell. I graduated from Willard High School at semester last month. Deciding on coming to OTC was so I could get some of my general education classes out of the way and I plan on attending College of the Ozarks in the fall of 2013. Though I am not sure what I want to do as a career, criminal justice has entered its way into my mind and I might try to pursue that field. My whole life I grew up right on the edge of Springfield but I just recently moved to Fair Grove where we built a new home. My family isn't huge by any means. I have an older brother, Tyler, who is almost 26 and lives in Nashville pursuing his dream of playing guitar in the music business. Also, I have an older sister, Megan, who is 24 and got herself a job teaching and coaching middle school basketball at Republic. Without my family I don't know what I would do, I love them more than anything. I pride myself in the fact I am a fourth Japanese and I would love to travel there someday. Just a few things to know me by are that I love eating, food is a big part of my family. I also enjoy working out, hunting/ fishing,  playing basketball, watching sports, shopping, and plain hanging out at home. Church is another big part of my life. I love God and know that He has a plan for me and will help me get through any tough times I may come across. I can't wait for what college has to offer me and getting to meet the new people I will encounter everyday. See you all soon :)

Free Write 1-17-13

I'm adjusting to the fact that I am in college now. I miss all my friends still at the high school and I hope and pray I didn't make the wrong decision coming here at semester. Even though I miss my friends I am excited to be starting early in life. I keep asking myself "What if?" What if I get disconnected from all my friends and at prom and graduation I will feel somewhat left out? What if I am getting to far ahead of myself? I hope that doesn't happen. God has a plan for me, as He says in Jeremiah 29:11. "For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord, "plans to prosper and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future." I know He'll take care of me. So badly I wish my Mom was here so I could talk to her, get advice and joke around with her. I know she is still with me even though I can't see her but it's just not the same. My dad is the best though, he always makes sure I have everything I need. He is such a great example of a Christian father to me and my 2 siblings. I will get through school and hopefully decide on a career and I absolutely am sure my dad will help me get there. This marks my journey as what I will become in life. I want to travel and see places I have only dreamt of. I want to try and give back just a fraction of the love my family has given me over the course of my almost 18 years. I want to write a book about my life and impact people all over the world. I want to figure out what I am going to do and get it done by using my fullest potential. But life is difficult sometimes, I am going to come across obsticals in life and God never said it would be easy. Hopefully those road blocks aren't to big.

Free Wrtie 1-15-13

Today is the day. I graduated high school at semester and now I am starting out this semester as a freshman at otc. It seems a bit scary I don't really know anybody so far but I am excited for what this school has to offer. My future is important to me. I hope that this will be my only semester here so I can pursue my dream of moving on in college and attending College of the Ozarks this coming fall. I'm still contemplating on what I want to do with my life. There are so many choices and I feel as if my time is running out. People tell me I don't have to know which career I  want yet but to me, I want to know. I want to have clarity and not have to stress over it anymore. I know God has a plan for me and I hope it will run smoothly. I have prayed the past few years that God will take me places He knows I can achieve. So far my first class at 7am this morning had been cancelled which I was not particularly happy about. I didn't know where to go or what to do so I just sat in my car for the next hour or so waiting to come to English Comp 2. I'm happy about english so far. It seems like my type of class and we get to use technology mostly which is good for me because I love technology. I hope the college experience is as great as everyone says it will be. I love my class schedule because I only go twice a week and I'm out by 12.45 those days. I have always loved free time and I'm sure I'm not the only one.